Greetings from my hideaway.
I am such an asshole. My sincerest apologies for dropping off the face of the earth once again. I keep getting ‘likes’ on this page and I notice that there is traffic here. I miss blogging so much, and I didn’t realize that my little prepper blog got so much attention. I suppose there are not many prepper blogs that come from a transgender perspective.
I had a realization today that for me I’m not prepping for when SHTF, because shit has hit the fan for me in the present. I need to get my ass in gear now.
A few updates on what has been going on in my life without getting into too much detail:
- June, moved back to my college town, worked full time at a homeless shelter
- July, went through a painful break-up (relationship of 6yrs)
- Fall, started EMDR for my complex PTSD–it’s going well, healing and growth however is painful.
- Fall, issues at work, interpersonal issues with coworkers,
- Winter, quit full time job due to too much passive aggression among co-workers
- January, I turned the big 30!
- January, got hired on the spot at the same Foundation I worked at in the town before at the branch here.
- February, working only part-time, hours are not being met, learning frugality.
I reached some fitness goals too. I can dead-lift 225lbs, and I weigh only 132lbs. I reached my cut goals and my lifting goals.
I’m lifting heavier than I ever thought possible. I go to the gym 5-7 days a week. I’m now working more on endurance and flexibility—what good is strength if you can’t have agility, dexterity, and stamina? My goal for this year is to be able to touch my toes. (Damn short hammies!)
I lost my health insurance when I quit my full-time position, but I did qualify for MNcare insurance. However, I was in an insurance purgatory for a bit where I needed to pay for my scripts out of pocket. My health insurance starts next month and I will get reimbursed from the pharmacy. I am hopeful that within the year I will get bumped up to a full-time position and have more hourly stability on the job. Meanwhile, my finances took a huge dive. It made me really learn how to manage my money and where it goes. It’s these sorts of things that people don’t seem to understand that prepping is all about—-preparedness for anything–that includes job loss, illness, job change, etc. I had plenty of food stored away this month and managed to only spend about $70 for food (You can do so much with potatoes).
In 4 months my lease is up and I well be venturing forth into finding a place of my own—no roommates. I need my own place.
I’ve been doing a lot when it comes to taking care of myself. I feel like a loner most of the time now, but it’s given me time for deep introspection and reflection. Along with counseling, I’m putting the pieces together of my fragmented sense of self. When it comes to prepping, I want to take a holistic approach and have all bases covered. It’s not just about stock-piling a bunch of stuff and doing bug-out drills. To me, Prepping is becoming self-reliant and learning to truly depend on yourself when you can’t depend on anybody else.
It’s so hard to trust anyone in this world, but I can trust myself to get my needs met and survive. I do long for community someday. But right now, I need to get my shit together.
Thanks for reading,
The Transgender Prepper